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Ok but like
If you leave then I won’t be with anyone
If you leave and I go looking for you..your not there
I will be here. Not you nor I will be in that place forever. Look at the bigger picture instead!
What is the bigger picture?
I know I won’t be there forever but I want to BE with my friends or the people I love until we all leave
You will be here but i will look for you forgetting your not with me in the school
The bigger picture is that, even in 10 years from now on, I will still be right here. And you better don’t ask me for how long did I had this website domain. It’s LONG.
That’s not really a ‘bigger picture’
What??
Ok I didnt even think about asking lol
But I might go in tomorrow just to go to señor 2 early in the morning without anyone cause I wanna see if I can catch him singing again and so I can sing with him lol
Are you in the interview?
I’ve been already now. I think I was too nervous lol.
It’s ok
I left school to go on a train to Briton
But it’s OK that you were nervous
You don’t need to be overconfident as long as you know what to say and to let the people understand why you deserve this job it will work out
You deserve to get this new job and leave this job as fast as you can because it really isn’t worth it
Honestly? It has been absolutely worth it to meet all of you, and my workmates. It is just that I really crave to be in a constant art environment.
I understand
But this school we are in is not worth it and you know it
I am not worth meeting
I am just a person, I have nothing to love about I am just here
It is not for you to decide if others are glad to meet you. You can only accept it!
And I am an extremely knowledgeable human being and I say you’re worth, and you cannot rebate me.
Because I am smart and always right.
Your always right?
That’s a strange way to think
I am smart aswell
But I just can’t understand why people stay around me, its something I’m not used to
I dont understand why teachers and students talk so highly about me
I never understood to begin with
Because you’re cool and caring and fun and bright.
Now stop talking badly about yourself. I am not letting anyone talk bad about you, not even you!
I couldn’t care less if anyone spoke bad about me
I just speak bad about myself cause its true
I can be cool and caring and fun in your eyes
But in mine
I am not
Teachers talk about me but I still don’t know why
Shush now.
You don’t believe me, but I don’t say lies.
You never lie
I know
You can try and not let me speak about myself in this way but I will always think that way
Not for any other reasons
I am just tired of myself
You know? I used to think like that about myself. I hated myself. I found nothing good or graceful. I thought I was unlovable, and life and people surrounding me did make sure to prove it right.
But things are not black or white.
There will always someone out there who will think you’re amazing just the way you are.
I kicked most of the people who made me feel unlovable out of my life. Could not kick everyone, unfortunately, but made sure to cut short contact with the ones I still had to keep.
Now I am surrounded by people who actually think I am worth and lovable, who care for me, and I cannot do anything but to shut up, because I love them too, and don’t want to disappoint them, so I guess I will have to “pretend it ’til I make it”.
Which means something like… I will try my best to live up to their expectations instead of spending my life thinking on how awful I think I are. It’s such an effort to spend that much of time just hating myself, it’s tiresome, and prevents me from being there for the people I want to connect with and take care of. So I slowly stopped being that person.
Was not a day to night thing, took time.
I don’t think that much on how much I dislike myself, I don’t have time for that.
I rather spend that time in trying to be the person they think I am.
Maybe one day, I will be able to make them correct in their assumptions.
I’m being the person my parents made me to be
Self hatred
Don’t worry, you won’t be living with them your whole life.
I hate pretending I would rather tell it straight
My view is black and white and I cannot change it in any way
I know you
You are everything to me I will protect you with all I have
I am willing to even hurt myself for others because I just don’t care
I feel like people surround me because of pity
I feel like people aren’t true enough
WHAT AM I SAYING
THIS IS STUPID
SHAMEFUL
IGNORE IT
I feel like I’m being pitied on constantly
I do not pity you. To be honest, I actually don’t like pity. I hate when people look at me with pity, big yikes. And do not hurt yourself. Protect yourself too. No one around you would be happy to see you hurting.
I would be happy to see them happy snd ok
That’s why I’m around people alot because I feel like I have no purpose until I make a person laugh
When others are happy
I am happy
That’s the only way for me to be happy
I dont mean to be annoying or rude but that’s how it is
I try not to but then I get horribly like angry with myself because I feel useless
You’re not useless, you make me laugh, and make my day a lot of days.
Pretty sure a lot of your friends think the same!
I try to
And I hate having to make others smile
For me to smile
I hate everything
I hate everything about that
I’m about to go to bed… but stop the hate.
Specially towards yourself.
You wanna hate something, I dunno, hate politicians, they tend to be a mess anyway.
I hate politicians all the time lol
WHAT IS THE JIGGLE JIGGLE SKIN?!?
‘Small pause’
Glizzyyyyy
I know that whatever I just said made no sense but I felt like doing that lol
Lmao
I really can eat for a long time and not get full wow ok lol
I walked into a res in hopes of just getting one thing
I ate 4 massive bowls and extras and even my dads bowl
So make that 5
Wow! I guess you need all that energy
I dont know how I did that though lol
I always do it
Whenever I eat food and I absolutely love it I don’t start talking about it or do a happy dance while eating
My eyes start to sparkle and I just start speed eating
It so fast that my parents say I’m a vacuum cleaner
Some people noms, you “whooooooosshhh” all the food.
Probably pretty impressive to witness.
I guess
I mean my family do eat with our hands
So me eating with my hands at a restaurant might be a bit strange aswell
But on top of that I have fast eating
I’m sad
And for the dumbest reason
I don’t remember the song that was on the steel drums when I played it in primary, I’m sad for the dumbest reasons
I’m sad about not remembering a song on the steel drums that I played. i dont know if it was the schools own song or an actual song. That’s the problem. So sad, but even when I was younger, I didn’t know the songs name
Im coming to school with top braces now aswell
Yahoo
Yikes! eating is going to get harder!
No?
I ate KFC
Also uhh
I lost so much motivation, and I can’t concentrate
I only did 6 q-cards, and they are tiny
AND I HAVE A SCIENCE TEST TOMORROW
I MIGHT HAVE TO PULL AN ALL-NIGHTER
Señor 2
Is really fun and chatty
Why do people not like him?
Hes awesome
He is really sweet, I’m pretty sure a lot of people enjoy his company.
No
I hear some of the kids talking bad about him
And I wanna turn around and start yelling
Because he is just so funny and he is worth staying with
I feel like I’m the only one that talks so much about him to be honest.
And I speak so highly of him
I dont know why lol
I don’t think you need to worry that much. The unpopularity contests are quite won by someone else. A few someones.
But like I don’t know why I talk about him and señor 1 so much
I dont know why I doubt they even care about me
Why would I care about them?
They never cared
If they did not care, they would have not had the jobs they have.
Too much trouble to do if you don’t care, honestly.
SEÑOR 1
NEVER CARED
ABOUT ANYONE IT ALWAYS FELT THAT WAY
BUT ALL OF A SUDDEN WHEN HE LEFT AND I WAS IN TEARS AND HE TOLD ME TO GO WITH HIM SOMEWHERE
I DIDNT GO
WHY? YOU MAY ASK
Because all I felt was rage
All he did was almost like ignore me
I know he was stressed but even I was questioning if I should even go to him during the times I went to him
I would go to the second floor thinking
Nah its not worth it
Hes not gonna care
I dont care at all anymore
I dont care if he visits
I am never speaking to him ever
He can visit
I dont care
But it’s ridiculous how, on his last day, he suddenly wanted to talk more to me
I just-
IT’S SO STUPID
I hated that day the most
I hated him so much
I’ve grown to not care anymore
I’m tired of it
I dont even want to know where he is
What he’s doing
Or even
How he’s doing
I’m tired
The way we ran around the whole school trying to look for him on the last day
Only to find out he was already gone
And when we went back out because we wanted to show him our certificates and to give him something
His bike wasn’t there
He was gone
I never felt such anger and hatred I never felt that way in my life I can’t even explain
I’m sorry
I just wanted that to get out
Because I’ve been enraged for such a long time lol
So sorry
Sorry
Do not apologize. I am glad at least you have a place to vent. We all need one.
Just know that we have to keep a distance.
Hopefully you stick around here long enough so one day I can tell you everything.
Though I think the best for you is to create all these adorable bonds with people equal to you, that do not need to keep a distance, and that are way safer for your development.
BUT SEÑOR ALREADY LEFT
THE LAST DAY WAS HORRIBLE
I hate him
I dont care if he visits
He can visit I dont care
I won’t even talk
I hate him for leaving
I dont care about his reasoning
I dont even know if he cared when he was in this school
I dont care anymore
He left
And this school has gotten so much worse
I want to leave
I hate this
I dont know if my drawings are still with him
And I dont care
I’m sorry
I just-
Feel that way
I feel like he hated me or just didn’t like me
And I just am with so much rage that he left
That I can’t control
I can
It’s ok
I thought about what you said
I dont want him to be sad ever
Señor 2
Showed señor the drawing and señor sent señor 2 a drawing that he has with him
It was one of mine
I almost burst into tears
I’m sorry
For talking about señor so much
And im sorry for being mean half of the time
And im sorry for myself entirely
My personality is not perfect
Stop apologizing, you’re fine the way you are! It is ok to vent every now and then!
And as far as I’m concerned, you have never been mean to me.
Not even once.
Yea but
I just talk about señòr so much
Isn’t that annoying?
I feel like I’m always rude even when I open my mouth to say something smart or nice
I just feel bad for alot of people that deal with me
You’re not rude.
You’re not annoying. Everyone deals with their emotions their own way.
And you do not need to feel bad for anyone, since as far as I know, everyone enjoys your company.
What did señor say?
Sorry I made you cry
Talking about crying have you seen the anime movie suzume?
You don’t even wanna know how much I burst into tears only because of a cat
I am pissed
I am so mad right now
Yk how beatriz told you how I’m sick
My business studies teacher gave a me negative for insufficient work
WHEN IM SICK AND NOT EVEN THERE
THAT DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE I CANNOT I AM SO PISSED OFF
And people wonder why I hate the school
I have never cried out of confusion before
Sorry, not logged today, but holy Molly. Speak to a principal assistant or ask your sister to call school to complain. It does not make sense.
Mrs this is stupid
HOW WOULD THEY GIVE ME INSUFFICIENT CLASSWORJ WHEN
1) I WASNT IN
2) I COULD BARELY GET UP YESTERDAY WITHOUT ALMOST FAINTING OF VOMITING
3) SHE DIDNT SEND IT TO ME TO EVEN DO WHEN I FELT BETTER AT ALL
IM COMING IN TODAY
I WILL CAUSE DRAMA I DONT EVEN CARE
SO ANNOYING
NOT ONLY THAT BUT SHE DOES THAT TO EVERYONE THAT MISSES 1 LESSON OF HERS BECAUSE SHES SO STUBBORN AND A HOT-HEAD THAT SHE DOESNT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT IT
MY GOD TODAY IS GONNA BE FUN